Recently, I received news that kind of shook me unexpectedly. Overcome by disappointment, I reached out to a good friend to lift me up in prayer in the area of wisdom. The next text detailed my current situation hoping that she would understand why I was requesting wisdom. After I hit send, I instantly felt regret because it seemed that I hadn’t or couldn’t overcome this challenge because this had been a topic of conversation many times before. Feelings of hopelessness started to move into my heart and I felt very defeated.
What followed was a series of texts which embodied truth delivered in an abundance of love. She basically challenged me to consider that God hadn’t granted the desire of my heart on purpose and possibly it had nothing to do with me. Perhaps, it wasn’t His time or He wanted me to relinquish all control over the situation. When I stopped to think about it, I mean REALLY THINK about it, I was trying to control the situation because it wasn’t happening fast enough, I was feeling overwhelmed, anxious and upset and she questioned why I would hold a burden that God was more than capable to carry. Ouch! Was I trying to carry this weight when it was not even meant for me to do so. This Scripture came to mind, “Give all your worries to Him because He cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7 (New Life Version).
She also said that denial could actually be his protection because I may not be ready for the prayer to be answered as a result of my other responsibilities that in all honesty can be hard to manage at times. I had heard two of my mentors say that there really is no such thing as balance but the key is to prioritize. When you prioritize, you tend to focus on that priority for a time period. Shonda Rhimes said it best, “Whenever you see me somewhere succeeding in one area of my life, that almost certainly means I am failing in another area of my life.” When I think about what I want, it most certainly will come at a price including time away from family.
Being a high achiever, I want it all but i’m stepping into the realization that our lives are about seasons. The one thing I know about seasons is they don’t last and although this season of my life seems extremely long, I have to trust God that in this season he is preparing me for the seasons ahead and I need to enjoy this season. Even if my prayers don’t come true in this season or the next, He knows my hearts desires and he truly cares enough to not give me what I want but what I need.
Dear friend, thank you for this revelation and for helping me shift my perspective!
Melsha Nicole Key 